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Saturday 30 December 2017

Night with friends

Dear diary ,,
As usual my days in jogja I spend with friends ,,
And tonight we plan to eat together ,,
I choose this Saturday because it is known Sunday night is a new year for the celebrate ,,
and i am a muslim ,, so from that i want saturday, because i do not want to celebrate it ,,
once in my life celebrating the new year, but I do not know why my heart feels unruly, raging and asking why I should be happy tonight when tomorrow is still the same today, just a different calendar.
Not only did I feel the same way, one of my same friends like me only once in her life celebrates the new year, because we think the same as many of our friends who are faithful and not faithful who often celebrate the new year ask.
Why?. Why do not you go away at the turn of the year, and I can only answer with what I know, that everyone who does the same thing then that person belongs to his class.
And they are still trying to deny, do not pretend you, yet you also have not hijrah not good anyway.
I only answer to stop his invitation, I am also a lustful woman, I also make mistakes, but as a woman I want to be better than before, hijrah is not easy for me, therefore I want to do it slowly and steady my heart and also the mind.
And finally they stopped the invitation, and even appreciate my decision, they also discouraged not to celebrate, though not all but I am grateful there is still an open heart to leave it.
We are still friends as usual, and respect each other's beliefs.

Sunday 31st December 2017

Accompanied by friends

Tonight ,, sounds very crowded ,,
Even though I was in the room, the roar still sounded ,,
A little dizzy because I was editing a poster but noisy sounding ears ,,
Suddenly my friend sent a message to visit me tonight, because in place and in my place everyone went to celebrate the new year ,,
I replied ok, he rushed to go to my place ,,
As always every one of us with our other friends feels like to join us,
But tonight the streets must be jammed once, they are lazy to get out,
And finally we video call together ,, laughter jokes created tat when I see my homemade poster,
They laughed at my appearance, because there I like grandma ,, hehehe name also demands the role,
They can not wait to see the movie from the poster that I made, and I just replied, wait on January 3 because that's the release date ,, hehehe and for you guys who often read my blog on the other chance I'll upload the movie now the poster was okay

Monday 1 january 2018

Still off again

Dear diary
The holiday still continues ,, it feels bored in three consecutive days and no holiday schedule,
Money has not been transferred, so can not walk ,,
Finally the edges in the board again in the boarding again ,,
While the bayangpun itself is happening, imagine the time I'll have a mahrom I certainly do not feel alone,
Hehehe I always want to get married at a young age, because besides I want to later me and my son become like a friend, I also want to avoid the actions that cause sin and slander if I take too long to delay in the sermon,
Many friends who agree and disagree with my plan, but the opinion in me is already firmly planted, from my family especially my father also support it,
Sometimes there is still a fear, because the words of friends why would in the khitbah, surely if in the khitbah we still do not know its nature,
But my opinion is still the same, because people who want in the sermon surely he loves God and he wants to stay away from the prohibition of sin dating, he alone loves God how he also loves us, because he must practice our religion, subhanallah calm if thinking like that,,
So tonight the contents are full of shadows, and may Allah grant me what I cultivate, and give all the best, AMINN

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Saturday 23 December 2017

Weekend

Today is a pretty tiring day after those days ago ,,
Want to hibernate like a bear
Sleep without having to think about it
Want to feel relaxed brain without the burden of the mind
Lectures are not as beautiful as I imagined
More tasks and tasks ...
All courses are the same, no one allows the student to breathe a moment from the fatigue
Well, maybe this is one of the maturation process, must learn to be responsible to finish what has been selected ,,
Today is the weekend,
It's time I became a teenager again,
Free to play without having to think about the others.
Today I got a fortune
To visit the hotel to meet an aunt from my friend ,,
Ahh ,, this relaxation, come early to just breakfast together ,, like a culinary tour for boarding children
After breakfast time to swim ,, lucky the hotel pool is quiet, feel like a private pool ,,
Simple but calm and comfortable ,, especially if it's all free, heaven of the world, heheheh
Go home was still given money pocket, really good that aunt ,,
Thanks for that today is very good to me, may be often yes like this, (keep in the heart)

Sunday 24 December 2017

Editing

It's time for video editing ,,
Things I like
This is all actually a task but it feels while playing because I like editing
Moreover, this editing is accompanied by people who like the same thing,
Expectations and thoughts began to not go anywhere, so talk about open pre-wedding services, photo shoot.
Like going back to vocational high school, vocational high school wants to go broadcast but the entrance fee is so expensive, so it does not happen,
and finally enter in informatics techniques,
Hem ,, things I do not like and finally I'm stuck here ..
Okay enough to remember the dark times, now just enjoy it,
Back to editing ,, editing this time interesting because its video about musical drama ,,
I put a lot of cool songs in my opinion, one of them "dream come true"
So bring his hearing ,, let alone scenes from the player so sweet really ,,
Melt today looking at scenes so sweet,

Monday, 25 December  2017

Failed totally

Today is still holiday ,, because today is Christmas,
Play around ,,
Today's the appointment at kos vina, and sarah today is planning on hair coloring ,,
Initially vina in order to bleaching sarah hair ,, eh did not change color because of thinness ,,
I started to intervene to try to bleach hair sarah ,, and it turns out so, although there are stripes,
Time for coloring, this time the theme of ombrei pink green and dark blue,
Colorful as lollipop,
The first layer is pink
The second layer is green
The third layer is dark blue
Initially was optimistic because the color began to look ,,
I continued again to color it,
After waiting for an hour more,
Sarah finally washed her hair to see the color ,,
OMG ,, in fact the blue color fails only green and pink, and that color is not flat and not bright ,,
Failed totally,
She got embarrassed to get out because there are people who say that her hair moss ,,
It feels like to laugh but sorry see him ..
It's been enough once trying to dye hair, people's hair again ,,

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Sunday 17 December 2017

Patient testers

Today is the week of 17 December,
It is a drama schedule, in this drama I play the role of grandmother, because obese people must have little role, in this drama I have many role behind the scenes.
I became a narrator, director and video editor, that's one of my behind-the-scenes activities, though honestly it's a bit tiring but it's fun too.
It feels great if every player can act well and satisfy, but his name is also still learning, so yes his acting is not as good as the artist. Nevertheless I appreciate enough if every player has done well.
I started making the drama with excitement while hoping the results are satisfactory, initially there is one player who can not come on time, okay ,, I planned to take his last scene only, initially all went well everyone was excited.
Until finally the late players come and we all still welcome it well, we continue shooting until finally he said that the scene he must be completed before 3 o'clock, suddenly everyone was surprised because the image taken over 3 o'clock.
He still continued to force, and finally with great compulsion I and other friends agreed the request, until I had to sacrifice taking my scene in the retreat, and he still can not wait to finish shooting when the camera was in the battery carger.
It's really hard to be tested with patience today, not only me but the other friends, but how else can we all just be patient with it, when there is one person who comes late and wants to go home first

Monday 18 December 2017

Fatigue

Today feels so tired,
Because yesterday just completed a tiring and time-consuming activity,
Today I went to college at 9 o'clock and because I was tired I was at 8 o'clock when I usually wake up at 5 o'clock.
It hurts all these bodies feel, because yesterday all day in the river for shooting.
And inevitably today I have to keep going to college, the first course is still okay because the spirit is pretty good, but starting the second course, my eyes are hard to open, sleepy. Got confused because almost just fall asleep in class because fatigue.
And to get rid of my drowsiness, I started to fight again to make people forget my sleep, hahahaha I looted them today by drawing watches using bulleto in their hands, I was notorious when I was bored or sleepy, must immediately hold their hands to draw a watch.
Many are angry and protest because their hands become dirty, hahaha I just laughed satisfied when successful, they want to repay me with the same thing, but I always managed to escape, until finally the lecturer who was aware of the commotion we were developing, initially we all had time to fear for fear of being appointed to go forward. But the father was just silent and returned to teaching, thank goodness ,, and finally sleepy gone though with a little bit ignorant hehehehe ..

Tuesday 19 December 2017

Learning together

Today it's time for practicum, as usual must be dizzy to learn a program ,,
But luckily today is free of duty, yes today free duty but ,, task for tomorrow has been a lot of queuing up to be done, maybe,
And today is a learning schedule together, but as usual because many are lazy we will learn with few people.
While learning me and my friends usually cook for snacks, and today our plan to cook "seblak", my expectation has begun to develop that it is spicy savory and steady.
Be us cooking "absolutely" and it feels different between reality and expectations, it's just plain and delicious if you eat too much. Yahhh we have cooked a lot today and finally mubadzir.
Learning was continued, every time I study it all feels lighter because I can exchange thoughts, but yes like that if you've learned while talking until you can forget the time.
But thanks for today you all have made learning more fun and becoming lighter

My Diary 3

Thursday 7 December 2017

My time is studying

Today….

All like the days before

Time is still running properly

There was only a different laugh and attitude

Today is the day I studied at the campus park with my friends

Friends who always help me in learning

The good friend God gave me

Not just in terms of science they taught me

But in the science of religion as well

And today they unintentionally open up to tell about their dark past

Many sin and wrongdoing, which they used to do

Same with me

And from that, a lot of lessons I get ,,

That over time

We can learn

Whether it's a good experience or a bad one,

I also hope from all the past experience

We can all learn

With what we have passed

And getting better

Friday, December 8, 2017

Drama text

Today I've made an appointment
To create drama text
At first me and my friends had confused want to make a legend about what drama
Because making drama texts with a few male players is hard,
Because it's hard to find a male player in a drama
Finally we decided to make a drama about "golden snail",
The drama is set in a sad story
But why every time I read it, I always laugh ..
Because of dissat I read it
I always imagine if my friend who played the role would be very funny
Hopefully later when taking pictures, all goes easily
And hopefully we will get maximum value ...
Amen ....

Saturday 9 December 2017

Time to tick tock

Today is
day where the day should be over
But again canceled and canceled again
Because of the replacement clock
And finally the weekend
replaced by playing around in the boardinghouse
Finally we decided to make a video tik tok in the boardinghouse
The weekend is arguably pretty frugal than the previous one
Only with smartphone
But even if only smartphone
We are very excited, and as always we play until we forget the time
Did not feel we played from 12:00 until the call to prayer maghans
Because every time we make and do not fit we will always repeat it
And finally a video that we think is pretty good
And I think to share it with you who read my blog
So happy watching ,,,,

cartoon song lyrics

reader letters

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Thursday 30 november 2017

Dear diary

We are equal in God's eyes

Today,,

It was a day that forced me to remember the wounds of the past,

Yes, from small I am always considered different by people who see me, especially friends.

I'm always in bully because my body is fat, I'm fat from small, almost every day I must be someone who mock me, to the extent that I become immune to the insult.

There is no comfort in the association, my days I spend in the home environment only. Watching TV, reading, and learning Just that-that's it.

Until even my friend can be counted, even I also have only one friend in my childhood, he named alfi he is a difable who often ridiculed like me, from the same that we are friends, until finally me and she had to split up to study in different places, At first I was afraid because I did not have any friends, scared to be mocked for sure.

Until my mother often invites me to socialize and invite me to study more deeply the science of religion, so that my confidence grows.

Now I begin to feel confident, because there is one word that I always remember that "we are equal in the eyes of God, only our charity that distinguishes".

Today the old insults or insults I did not hear back in the mouth of my college friend, his words very rude. As if I'm what ?. I'm not pretty, yes, I know that, why he makes me feel different again and again, when the beliefs start to grow well, remember the fellow beauty is tempting, but the beauty of the heart is comfortable. Indeed I am immune to reproach, but, stay away sometimes I also feel sick if it is too rough, we are the same why you should distinguish my difference just because my physical,

Friday 1 December 2017

Dear diary,

My family is happy with me

Among the sickness of heart because of ridicule,

I still have a family that always supports me and encourages me.

Today is the day to release the longing, 

although only via telephone, 

it has made my sense of desolation is reduced.

They are the best people God has presented in my life.

God always gives happiness amid trials.

And my family is my happiness.

Mother…

you are one of the good proofs of god to me,

you take care of me till I mature without word tired,

father…

you are my guard when I am afraid and when I want to be strengthened

my brother ...

you are the most beautiful color in my life,

which made me learn to understand and keep.

Without you guys I'm nothing.

Saturday 2 December 2017

Dear diary,

Saturday with friends

Every Saturday I spend my time with my friends who always lead in kindness,

We met through a religious organization that required us to meet every Saturday,

Every Saturday we meet to murotal, studying a book and introspection, me and my friends accompanied by a mentor or muhasabah named ustadzah tasa laurika, he is our teacher who always accompany us in learning.

I always wait for Saturdays

Because saturday will be many lessons and new experiences about religion that I can.

Very often I hear that a friend is a reflection of you,

Hearing that I think the same.

Because a good friend will remind us if we are wrong

Friends in this organization are different from previous friends,

They never taunted me or scorned me, because they knew that we were all alike,

Getting it all, I constantly thank God for bringing good people into my life right now.

I hope that I am always in the middle of them to just remind them wrong and true, thanks to this memorable friend